Have you ever had one of those days where...

...you just feel like you need to just throw in the towel? Oh, I am having one of those days today. I call this a dumpy day for me. Basically it's a feel sorry for myself kind of day.

I feel I am just getting nowhere. I work and work and never seem to get anywhere. I understand that my Hubby is laid off right now but I had high expectations that he would be back to work by April 1st. Wasn't that an April Fool's joke. He is laid of temporarily and they said it should have been just 60 to 90 days, well that has came and went. We are in need of some things that we can not have until he goes back to work and we have more money coming in, and it is driving me nuts I am not used to that. I also had some hope that he would pick up some of the household chores since he wasn't working but that has not happened either which upset me, but what am I to do? I love my Hubby to death and I understand that him not working is not his fault.

For those of you who don't know, I am a home daycare provider, and I am watching someones else's kids anywhere from 86 to 95 hours per week. I have extremely long days Monday thru Friday and a shorter day on Saturday. I love my daycare kids to death. I am not sure what I would ever do without them. They are really great but, it just wears me out. I guess I just need a vacation.

My hubby and daughter have now decided that I am worse than a teenager on myspace. I am not quite sure that I agree with them. I still get the meals, take out the trash, do the laundry, do my job, buy the groceries, clean the house, visit the grandparents on Sunday and answer the phone when nobody else wants to. And sometimes I don't do that either. I don't see a teenager doing all that and spending time on the Internet. As a matter of fact I don't much see my Hubby doing all that either:) He would do it if I asked, I am sure but I just don't want to have to ask. I would rather just do it myself.

You know after reviewing the last two paragraphs I think that I have a right to feel the way I do today. I think I deserve to have a dumpy day. I just realized that maybe I am exhausted. I think that I am right.

Exhausted =

ex·haust (ĭg-zôst') v. ex·haust·ed , ex·haust·ing , ex·hausts v. tr.

1. To wear out completely.

2. To drain of resources or properties.

3. To use up completely.
4. To treat completely.

5. To draw out the contents of.

6. To let out or draw off.

Sorry for being such a whiner today but I needed it.